Mutual

I've been recently reminded of times when I actually had ambitions. When I knew where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do, and who I thought I was going to be. I have a pretty general idea of the previously listed, but what is there really? I have dreams of travelling abroad, learning foreign tongues, and studying all kinds of new topics and philosophies. Now I feel empty. As though the rest of the world holds higher expectations than I could ever possibly reach. 'Back in the day', as our elders say, things were simpler. Getting into a university was still a fair sum of money, but grades and extra curricular activities never seemed to count as significantly. It's not as though I don't work my hardest, I do. But I have no drive, if that makes sense. I want to get out of this dumpy town and fulfill what I believe I ought, but when I look around and do research on how that will happen, everything dies. When we were younger, we would shout things out such as 'Astronaut!', 'Fireman!', 'Movie star!', 'The president!', 'Barbie!' when asked what we wanted to be when we were of age. Why is the mentality different? As it seems, modern-day pressures are sitting on me like stone.